OMG LONGING.

I think I'm ready. I don't want to delay, even though at an earlier time I was fine. There's plenty of time.

But I don't want to find myself getting bored or missing out on chances....

Where is my strength?

There was a time when I was stronger.

I've lost that.  And my voice.

Or at least, it's there, but it doesn't know how to come out.

Trying to find myself again

Something about listening to The Current, and staying in today really set the mood for something familiar.  Confidence has grown.  Starting over is still hard.

I feel like I'm finding my old self again, which is kinda good, because I miss it.  There's a lot of frustration and feelings of not being satisfied lately.

Looking...

I keep telling myself and others that if it happens, it happens.  It's not a priority while I'm starting over.  But what if it doesn't?  Should I be the one to be proactive?

I kind of dream and can almost what it must feel like to be in that place.  But I'm also worried about it ending.  

I will take it as it comes.  I enjoy this time, but...

Must get into gear

I told myself that working hard more than ever, starts now.  I just need to get there.

What am I doing? I'm posting quiz results.

Main Type Overall Self Take Free Enneagram Personality Test Enneagram Test Results Type 1 Perfectionism |||||| 30% Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||||| 70% Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||| 54% Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||| 66% Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||||| 62% Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||||||| 58% Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||||||||| 70% Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||| 42% Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||||| 58% Your main type is 7 Your variant is self pres Take Free Enneagram Personality Test

Frickin' stressed to no end, but am optimistic.

I'm very stressed out about the new adventure that I'll be embarking upon, but I'm very excited.  Dreaming big things...

Listening to Jonsi while doing this helps enhance the experience too. hahaha

Finally!

I have been waiting, and waiting, and waiting for this to come my way again.

One of the best performances I've heard.

Alone time needed...stat.

I'm going crazy. I just want to be left alone with extremely minimal human interaction. No one understands how to respect my privacy and leave me alone. I really want to be a recluse right now. Solitude is needed.

I'm being really ambitious here...

I think I was meant for something great.

Quoting a Miley Cyrus song...

I wanna fly, I wanna drive, I wanna go
I wanna be a part of something I don’t know
And if you try to hold me back I might explode

-Can't Be Tamed, by Miley Cyrus.

Jónsi - Tornado (Full Studio Version)

My current mood:

So close, yet so far.

The end is near...I'm almost home free!

The wait is killing me...ugh it can't come soon enough.

Michael Giacchino's Oscars acceptance speech

Read it: http://oscar.go.com/nominations/nominees/up/3335 (you'll want to check out the video via the Oscars website too).

Where the heck was this guy when I was younger?

I'll move on though and take his advice and run with it now.

Thoughts at the moment

I wanna fly
And never come down
And live my life
And have friends around

-"We Never Change" by Coldplay

The score to the movie (in my head)

I want to do so many things in my life. I'm committed to achieving all of those things. It's a matter of what am I going to do to help get me there.

Temporary hopefulness.

For a brief moment, I feel as though I can conquer the world again. Or that I'll be able to reach new heights and awaken my potential that has been dormant for so long.

I'm dreaming big.

Going in a direction, finally!

Can't wait for the fresh start to begin. It can't come soon enough.