He...

He makes me feel beautiful. I'm so glad I found him.

Tapping old emotions

I didn't like being in such a low point, but I think it was during this time that my greatest emotional expressive output was brought forth. I knew that when I was in a better place, that I would miss it.

These past few weeks have been a journey back to that place, but I don't know if it's worth the visit. But oh how I miss it...

The chase

The need to "find yourself" is always exhilarating, terrifying, and motivating. But it can also be quite exhausting and frustrating too.

Rainy day

I've been running around so much that I really needed a rainy day like today to keep me at home and to stay put. I really need days like this to regroup.

The sound of the rain, the cars driving through it, and listening to Adele has brought me to a place that I forgot I could go to. Some emotionally rich place, where I wish words could describe. But in the meantime, I will just share it here. I miss being here. It's been so long. 

OMG LONGING.

I think I'm ready. I don't want to delay, even though at an earlier time I was fine. There's plenty of time.

But I don't want to find myself getting bored or missing out on chances....

Trying to find myself again

Something about listening to The Current, and staying in today really set the mood for something familiar.  Confidence has grown.  Starting over is still hard.

I feel like I'm finding my old self again, which is kinda good, because I miss it.  There's a lot of frustration and feelings of not being satisfied lately.

Must get into gear

I told myself that working hard more than ever, starts now.  I just need to get there.

Frickin' stressed to no end, but am optimistic.

I'm very stressed out about the new adventure that I'll be embarking upon, but I'm very excited.  Dreaming big things...

Listening to Jonsi while doing this helps enhance the experience too. hahaha

Finally!

I have been waiting, and waiting, and waiting for this to come my way again.

One of the best performances I've heard.

I'm being really ambitious here...

I think I was meant for something great.

Jónsi - Tornado (Full Studio Version)

My current mood:

Michael Giacchino's Oscars acceptance speech

Read it: http://oscar.go.com/nominations/nominees/up/3335 (you'll want to check out the video via the Oscars website too).

Where the heck was this guy when I was younger?

I'll move on though and take his advice and run with it now.

The score to the movie (in my head)

I want to do so many things in my life. I'm committed to achieving all of those things. It's a matter of what am I going to do to help get me there.

Temporary hopefulness.

For a brief moment, I feel as though I can conquer the world again. Or that I'll be able to reach new heights and awaken my potential that has been dormant for so long.

I'm dreaming big.

Lost? (Yes, I'm kind of thinking of Coldplay)

I just want to stop feeling lost already. It's driving me nuts.

A feeling of hope...

I feel a sense of euphoria this afternoon. More like hope...that things are going to get better. I'm going to find myself in a better place in my life, and that I'm going to do a lot of positive learning.

It's been SO long since I've felt anything like this before. I'm going to hold on to it while it lasts.

My coming of age saga continues...

I love it when I can relate to items on Postsecret.


I'm definitely feeling this item. I can't say that I'm there yet...but I'm close.

Let's begin.

We cleaned the windows in the house today. These windows were recently replaced within this past decade so it's practically plastic. We pulled them apart, wiped all of the dirt away and then put them back in their place.

There was something slightly comforting about the entire activity. When the window was removed (screen included), it left the house with a gaping open entry between outside and inside. It was reminiscent of being in the Philippines, where there are no screens on windows in the houses in my mom and dad's respective neighborhoods. Only bars so you can't just break in or climb in I suppose. You don't need to slide the window open over there; it serves no purpose. The climate is different.

It made it easier for people to communicate with those open windows. We could talk to each other, one person inside and one outside of the house. We could summon each other without yelling twenty times over throughout the house by simply yelling at least once or twice since you could hear them through the open windows.

In any case, it was reminiscent of a time when things were so easy going and carefree. So many things big and small didn't seem to matter. They all escaped through the window.

The windows are back up in the house now (obviously at this time of "day"), and those stupid everyday worries are starting to rush back in. They're trapped in the same room with me and I need to get some air.

I need something in my life that never fails to blow a gentle breeze my way that reminds me that calm exists and it's beautiful.